quote from somebody

some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength. however, there are times in life when it takes more strenght to just let go.

i write

things i write, you want to read, painful or not. i write as i go, not knowing how the story will be. life isn't happy at times to some. no fairytales here, just a story with no meaning, just pain and sorrow. no remembrance of memories is best.

past

the past reflects who you are, how you are, why you are. some take it, some dont

grace hansen

dont be afraid that your life will end. be afraid that it will never begin

quote from somebody

people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to try to knock them down

quote from kelley clarkson

forgiveness is such a simple word but its so hard to do when you've been hurt

i see you last

i see you last in mine eyes. lived i have as i see the past, never with regrets, change nothing i say. smiling with deep sorrow holding in comfort, i see you last in mine eyes, then all will reflect the appearance i bestowed in the lives, i see you last in mine eyes, the last breath i intake as i opt this judgement.

sudden emotion

suddenly, assemblage of tears expelling from mine eyes, lamenting in mineself as i endeavor not to expose my sufferance. i pray this ordeal to lapse betime. infelicitous strickens me whole, suddenly

leave me be

abhor envelopes me at your spectacle, i fancy never to converse with you. obstruct yourself from me and i too will remove you from the hearts core. ire conception still ambient, avoid yourself in these mending days or for eternal. i no longer ken you in forward days.

day by day

Day by day I cry
Mine tears now are dry
Day by day I say why
Why did she lie
Day by day I try
But still I sigh
Day by day I die
As I close mine eye
Day by day

hide

In deep sorrow mine eyes show, the pain within streams down my cheeks as I try to understand of such emotion. Why endure feelings if such pain exist, which I choose not to have.

watching

i watch in pain. frozen, as i see a rendevous being said, aching in mineself but i must not add mineself as i see it may be i that done such thing to mineself but i still ache as i see what ive done to mineself. i must swallow mine pain as i see mine mistake with.

GOODBYE

the world i now am, the world i feel, the world i change mineself, i now know is futile, in vain i waited but to find now i was but a pawn, the world i left, the world i now miss, the world i now must go to, as the doors closes of such treacherous world i no longer want as i now am eager to ingulp back. may this world no longer return. it is not for me i am not for this world. Good Bye! may i walk in no membrance, may i walk with no emotion once again............. once again GOOD BYE! my sweets. good bye...........

I do not desire

i do not desire the warmth glow in mineself, finding such tremendous exertion to be futile, heavy laden in mineself be kept to be discharge, seeing no acknowledge of incite in reversion, i do not desire the warmth glow in mineself with a dolor heart.

thank you

as i say thank you, the little time spared for me, as i say thank you, the little cake we shared, as i say thank you, for accepting my hug in words, as i say thank you, the little time spared for me.
                                                             thank you....

valentines this day

This day, openly i say you, patiently i wait, yes you, rememberance of yesterdays together we spent, hoping....wanting....not to end, but patiently i wait, Happy Valentines this day.

ludwig van beethoven

The heaven of my deep love ties our hearts with bonds which cannot be untied and only death can sunder them. Reach out your hand my beloved and so until death

ludwig van beethoven

Nothing is left in trust, never go where weakness might lead to do wrong alone, I leave all this

ludwig van beethoven

for me there is no longer any happiness except in myself, give me strength to conquer myself, since nothing must tie me to life, in this way, everything goes in ruin.

ludwig van beethoven

Be as good as possible, her devotion deserves never to be forgotten, though, unfortunately, advantageous consequences for you could never result there from 

ludwig van bethoven

love - yes, love alone can make your life happy! O  God , let me find someone whose love i am allowed.

ludwig van beethoven

The tears of your silent eyes, with their love filled splendor, oh, that i might gather them from your cheek, before the earth drinks them in.

ludwig van beethoven: immortal beloved

My angel, my all, my very self....my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - i can live only wholly with you or not at all... Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you -my life - my all - farewell. oh continue to love- never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. 
                                                            ever thine
                                                            ever mine
                                                            ever ours

birthday hug

amiable embrace, in comfort i wrap, this day of your birth. hold in tenable, i whisper "happy birthday", may ananity of mind come to you soon and a life of wonder splendor.

night skies

peace in the world above. the moon lightens the world below. the stars glitter for beauty. be calm as you lay, drifting to sleep as your eyelids gets heavy, i bid you good night and pleasant dreams

paradise

sadness covers me in whole. hurtful pain stabs from inside out. blood streams from every pores.
i welcome paradise without hesitation

thoughts

confusion of immortal thoughts. dead i live alive balance even. remembrance no option as i look nowhere.

bedside rhyme

now i lay me down to sleep if i not wake.
happiness be around
im no longer in the way
no longer taking space
memories of me, no one will have
just nobody special
that took someones space

chains

my hands bound by chains, never, i dream of such paradise, gnawing til i bleed, i die inside, seeing only a servant in mine own kingdom, i lay down to die soon

i wish

i wish upon a star
never to wish of dreams i see
i wish upon a star
to give me strength for the things im about to do
i wish upon a star
to seek happiness for myself
i wish upon a star
sweet, my brat, although may not be true

illusion of dreams

this world i enter i step with illusion. i saw a future with sweets.
 finding only a dream.
 time wasted for words i hear. never i feel such warmth and content.
darkness falls, star shining. looking up we are one.
getting lost every step i take,mesmerized of the illusion.
beginning only to be a dream

servants

alone. myself a servant to the needs of others. yearning in turn for me to be served and wanted, such feelings i show, but never shall i know of this. my life, i see is not for me, but for others til i die. im no importance to others as i am to me

despair not

despair not. God be with you in this rueful times, we too pour our tears in gesture of your deep sorrow, oh God! comfort their tender hearts and offer the deepest joys in keepsake, i may say, despair not. my friend

my hero and teacher (navajo code talker)

Be calm as we honor you. the sending of melodious birds in tune from above. gustful breeze whispers to you; hence forth, withdraw nevermore. i say this. God give you strength my teacher, our valiant. be well soon

simpleness

the simplest things that friends say or do to one another can mean so much

death

death is a sad thing to the living since they cannot see their loved ones again, but only suffer pain by living in their memories

wake

I wake not in dispair for once from months past, not heavy in mineself, i see before me but with glee as the past is still there in different

valentines

oh my!, in the early morn to the night skies, this day!. Happy Valentines Day i say to you...you....yes you. forget i not of someone of you. Again Happy Valentines Day

RAGE

My mind in array......disturbing thoughts rage within, never in doubt opts my sights.......closing mine eyes such hatred i see as my thoughts go astray......i say take my breath soon..... i cry

lookin behind

lookin behind, the past i see
lookin behind, mine heart aches prickly
lookin behind, i walk as i dare not turn heavy in heart
lookin behind, i cry
lookin behind, empty i feel
lookin behind, i wish not true
lookin behind, wanting the past
turn now
i walk forward......alone

pain within

droplets clash upon the sand, mine heart sevors in pain, tho i may not want, alone i feel in silence i cry, 
droplets clash upon the sand, hurtful silence i want, memories come in abundance as i close mine eyes,
how long may this go, droplets clash upon the sand.