weakness

There are times when emotions awaken in a moment of weakness, when you see history within seeing distance of you, but cannot with headstrong withhold as the emotion pours knowing what was given up

home

Sibling amongst you from far and near, together we be in joyous of event. Heartsake remembrance of the day we share our time with. As the day goes on, feelings of bliss and content of being home

melody

Memories awaken on melody of tunes being played as i suddenly feel content in mineself knowing all in mineself is not lost, seeing the past i lived, still the melody plays and so it fades along in the end, so does the past as it goes to sleep til it awakens again.

step forward

Spillage of self emotion deminishing knowing the relief i feel with little knowledge of hurt in mineself. Here and there remnance remain, but now i see mineself frolicking as i step forward. You, you have aide me in my time of need. Never did i ask, but in comfort you did. I ask never leave me be

share

See mine eyes as I too see you in depth, as the tears pour like waterfall knowing this time is ours til you become extinct from mine eyes with no knowledge amidst us as we only see us. sharing our fondness before mine last intake, behelden the inspiring awe you confer while I breathe. See joy with our smile as I depart.

just in the way

The sun shining on warm summer day in a park. The kids are playing while the parents are watchin, relaxin just enjoying the day. On the other corner of the park in a shaded area, a family getting ready to sit down on a blanket getting ready to eat. A little boy suddenly falls and bruise his knee starts to cry, but his grandfather comes to the rescue and comforts him as he massages his knee. The boys mother angrily tells the grandfather to move away and also tells him "your just in the way". The grandfather goes back to the blanket while the mother tells the boy to sit on the blanket as she prepares the food for him. The mother turns and yells at the grandfather, telling him to move to the other corner of the blanket, telling him again how she ended up caring for him when she has better things to do because hes always in the way.
 A mugger jumps from a bush nearby and grabs the boy holding a knife yelling "give me all your money or Im gonna hurt da boy". The mother terrified starts whaling telling him please not to hurt her baby, but then the grandfather lunges forward and pushes the boy aside and the mugger stabs the grandfather and runs off.
 The mother stops crying suddenly as she sees her father drop to the ground. Then she runs over to her father yelling "somebody please help!, somebody call the cops! my dad is hurt!, help me!". she rolls her dad over holdin him cryin tellin him "Please dont go!, please! I love you!, dont go dad please". the dad in a weaken state smiles at his daughter and tells her "I love you, but im just in the way remember" and closes his eyes as he takes his last breath.

sit back and let me take you to a place

 The sun setting in the multicolored evening sky of blue, pink, purple and red inherits the background enhancing the beauty around the yellow orange sun.
 Hearing various types of birds singing in diffrent tone rhythm in surrounding close areas.
 The aroma of several scents in the air from plants and trees not over powering one another as you walk taking a deep whiff.
 Feeling a slight breeze as you hear the rustling of the leaves about you.



                                     Where are you? are you still there?

still i wake

i wake drenched in tears seeing first the memories in past, the profound of mine heart in ravage. oh how i loathe waking for the day as i know the pain awaits. still i ache, without portent, it lunges forthwith. how long may this last? i grow weary of this emotion, begging,.........no, pleading to oust the affection, but still i wake

sadly i cannot

mineself weep in grievance as the existance of scathing pathos prevalent, let alone i cannot open mine arms in acceptance, the annoyance far exceeds the intolerable affection, sadly, with displeasure i must turn about and step forward in solitaire

alone

alone, i choose to be. the immense depression crowds mine mind with no ambition for life itself. hatred in mineself having to open what i shouldnt have, falling for the words that was spoken i thought was true. alone, i choose to be.

lived

as i now stand on my toes with no bearing of weight, i have now in content knowing i am now lived. the emotion i see around me. lived of such things i never knew exist til now, i have know the ripping in me as i always knew this world isnt for me, but i did enter for love although i wasnt the one chosen. i now close the doors to this world and return back to my old

my judgement

Sadness fills me whole as I opt my judgement knowing the Lost and anguish I must subsist before me, but must be kept in spite of.

quote from somebody

some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength. however, there are times in life when it takes more strenght to just let go.

i write

things i write, you want to read, painful or not. i write as i go, not knowing how the story will be. life isn't happy at times to some. no fairytales here, just a story with no meaning, just pain and sorrow. no remembrance of memories is best.

past

the past reflects who you are, how you are, why you are. some take it, some dont

grace hansen

dont be afraid that your life will end. be afraid that it will never begin

quote from somebody

people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to try to knock them down

quote from kelley clarkson

forgiveness is such a simple word but its so hard to do when you've been hurt

i see you last

i see you last in mine eyes. lived i have as i see the past, never with regrets, change nothing i say. smiling with deep sorrow holding in comfort, i see you last in mine eyes, then all will reflect the appearance i bestowed in the lives, i see you last in mine eyes, the last breath i intake as i opt this judgement.

sudden emotion

suddenly, assemblage of tears expelling from mine eyes, lamenting in mineself as i endeavor not to expose my sufferance. i pray this ordeal to lapse betime. infelicitous strickens me whole, suddenly

leave me be

abhor envelopes me at your spectacle, i fancy never to converse with you. obstruct yourself from me and i too will remove you from the hearts core. ire conception still ambient, avoid yourself in these mending days or for eternal. i no longer ken you in forward days.

day by day

Day by day I cry
Mine tears now are dry
Day by day I say why
Why did she lie
Day by day I try
But still I sigh
Day by day I die
As I close mine eye
Day by day

hide

In deep sorrow mine eyes show, the pain within streams down my cheeks as I try to understand of such emotion. Why endure feelings if such pain exist, which I choose not to have.

watching

i watch in pain. frozen, as i see a rendevous being said, aching in mineself but i must not add mineself as i see it may be i that done such thing to mineself but i still ache as i see what ive done to mineself. i must swallow mine pain as i see mine mistake with.

GOODBYE

the world i now am, the world i feel, the world i change mineself, i now know is futile, in vain i waited but to find now i was but a pawn, the world i left, the world i now miss, the world i now must go to, as the doors closes of such treacherous world i no longer want as i now am eager to ingulp back. may this world no longer return. it is not for me i am not for this world. Good Bye! may i walk in no membrance, may i walk with no emotion once again............. once again GOOD BYE! my sweets. good bye...........

I do not desire

i do not desire the warmth glow in mineself, finding such tremendous exertion to be futile, heavy laden in mineself be kept to be discharge, seeing no acknowledge of incite in reversion, i do not desire the warmth glow in mineself with a dolor heart.

thank you

as i say thank you, the little time spared for me, as i say thank you, the little cake we shared, as i say thank you, for accepting my hug in words, as i say thank you, the little time spared for me.
                                                             thank you....

valentines this day

This day, openly i say you, patiently i wait, yes you, rememberance of yesterdays together we spent, hoping....wanting....not to end, but patiently i wait, Happy Valentines this day.

ludwig van beethoven

The heaven of my deep love ties our hearts with bonds which cannot be untied and only death can sunder them. Reach out your hand my beloved and so until death

ludwig van beethoven

Nothing is left in trust, never go where weakness might lead to do wrong alone, I leave all this

ludwig van beethoven

for me there is no longer any happiness except in myself, give me strength to conquer myself, since nothing must tie me to life, in this way, everything goes in ruin.

ludwig van beethoven

Be as good as possible, her devotion deserves never to be forgotten, though, unfortunately, advantageous consequences for you could never result there from 

ludwig van bethoven

love - yes, love alone can make your life happy! O  God , let me find someone whose love i am allowed.

ludwig van beethoven

The tears of your silent eyes, with their love filled splendor, oh, that i might gather them from your cheek, before the earth drinks them in.

ludwig van beethoven: immortal beloved

My angel, my all, my very self....my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - i can live only wholly with you or not at all... Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you -my life - my all - farewell. oh continue to love- never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. 
                                                            ever thine
                                                            ever mine
                                                            ever ours

birthday hug

amiable embrace, in comfort i wrap, this day of your birth. hold in tenable, i whisper "happy birthday", may ananity of mind come to you soon and a life of wonder splendor.

night skies

peace in the world above. the moon lightens the world below. the stars glitter for beauty. be calm as you lay, drifting to sleep as your eyelids gets heavy, i bid you good night and pleasant dreams

paradise

sadness covers me in whole. hurtful pain stabs from inside out. blood streams from every pores.
i welcome paradise without hesitation

thoughts

confusion of immortal thoughts. dead i live alive balance even. remembrance no option as i look nowhere.

bedside rhyme

now i lay me down to sleep if i not wake.
happiness be around
im no longer in the way
no longer taking space
memories of me, no one will have
just nobody special
that took someones space

chains

my hands bound by chains, never, i dream of such paradise, gnawing til i bleed, i die inside, seeing only a servant in mine own kingdom, i lay down to die soon

i wish

i wish upon a star
never to wish of dreams i see
i wish upon a star
to give me strength for the things im about to do
i wish upon a star
to seek happiness for myself
i wish upon a star
sweet, my brat, although may not be true

illusion of dreams

this world i enter i step with illusion. i saw a future with sweets.
 finding only a dream.
 time wasted for words i hear. never i feel such warmth and content.
darkness falls, star shining. looking up we are one.
getting lost every step i take,mesmerized of the illusion.
beginning only to be a dream

servants

alone. myself a servant to the needs of others. yearning in turn for me to be served and wanted, such feelings i show, but never shall i know of this. my life, i see is not for me, but for others til i die. im no importance to others as i am to me

despair not

despair not. God be with you in this rueful times, we too pour our tears in gesture of your deep sorrow, oh God! comfort their tender hearts and offer the deepest joys in keepsake, i may say, despair not. my friend

my hero and teacher (navajo code talker)

Be calm as we honor you. the sending of melodious birds in tune from above. gustful breeze whispers to you; hence forth, withdraw nevermore. i say this. God give you strength my teacher, our valiant. be well soon

simpleness

the simplest things that friends say or do to one another can mean so much

death

death is a sad thing to the living since they cannot see their loved ones again, but only suffer pain by living in their memories

wake

I wake not in dispair for once from months past, not heavy in mineself, i see before me but with glee as the past is still there in different

valentines

oh my!, in the early morn to the night skies, this day!. Happy Valentines Day i say to you...you....yes you. forget i not of someone of you. Again Happy Valentines Day

RAGE

My mind in array......disturbing thoughts rage within, never in doubt opts my sights.......closing mine eyes such hatred i see as my thoughts go astray......i say take my breath soon..... i cry

lookin behind

lookin behind, the past i see
lookin behind, mine heart aches prickly
lookin behind, i walk as i dare not turn heavy in heart
lookin behind, i cry
lookin behind, empty i feel
lookin behind, i wish not true
lookin behind, wanting the past
turn now
i walk forward......alone

pain within

droplets clash upon the sand, mine heart sevors in pain, tho i may not want, alone i feel in silence i cry, 
droplets clash upon the sand, hurtful silence i want, memories come in abundance as i close mine eyes,
how long may this go, droplets clash upon the sand.